Life is... gah =[
im constantly still depressed , despite the amazing days i;ve been spending with people lately , its like summer holidays are finaly here ,
i've take my pale skin away and actually put on colour into it , SHOCK HORROR , daily swimming and so forth but i still feel like a fat lardo =[
mmm , drawing has been.... hard , i dont feel i can create anything of interest for my viewers.
somehow i feel like im cheating you...
i'm no artist =[ just a person who thinks they can draw.
which i currerently feel is a lie.


im sick of the summer loves people are having, im sick of lovey dovey bullshit.
im sick of drunken flings.
im sick of weed.
im sick of music.
im sick of books.
im sick of drawing.


my world is falling apart.


found out two people i knew died in the past week.
one commited suicide
and the other a brain haemmorage.

cant even begin to explain how numb i feel.
Update

Found out a third person i know died last night. another suicide.... just fuck =[ FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

-ReB
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